Attention

When I’ve become so attention freak?
Why suddenly I need it so much?
I feel that I’m not getting enough, and it freaks me out even more.
Be alone not that fun anymore, and I try to be closer to people.
But I always have this thought deep inside me, that it’s just not it, something is missing there.
I need to feed subliminal, stereotyping and probably wrong, sides of me that need something else.
But what??!
I don’t know what…
Most of the creatures die without food, but this hungry monster just becoming bigger and bigger.
It feels like in the song by Lana Del Rey.
It mesmerize you as a little bunny that see a high lights of fast car on highway, that coming toward it, and can’t move, paralyzed and doomed.